Concern

A sudden concern in my heart..
It shouldn't be like this..
A sudden question popped in front of me
And shockingly I don't know how to answer it
Many asked the same question
And I thought I can answer it well
But obviously I don't


A friend braced me up
And helped me clear up my thoughts
Huge discoveries and conclusions I've made:
There are many things that I still don't understand about him
Every time I thought that I knew him too well
But in fact, I didn't..
I realized that I'm a heavy burden to him
I depended too much on him
And never thought out for him
All this time I didn't do anything right
And break his heart at all times..


And what he needs now, is not me
I alway thought that I know myself
And I also thought highly of myself too much
I don't deserve anything from him
His future is bright, I can see it
And I'm an obstacle to his future


It's time to wake up..
It's a dream that shouldn't exist right now..