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Fucking damn pissed off right now...
What the hell is going on???
Why are there so many damn fakers and bullshitters around me...
Are you telling me,
that the world cannot survive without fakers and bullshitters all over it?
Stop faking around and be a nice guy in front of me
I know what you are up to
And I will be damned honored to play with you in this drama
I don't care what you are planning behind this thing
I just wanna know why is that you wanna do that

And by the way
So what if I made it happened?
You were not there
And do I need your permission to do what I want?
I thought you agreed to it
And I'm furious that you REALLY agreed to it
Okay, I admit I did it intentionally
Because you disregard me
And give me up (literally) to others without even asking me
And made up your mind on your own
Am I such a cheap woman in your eyes?
If I see you right now
I swear I will knock out some senses out of you
With every method I can do

So pissed off right now till I can't breathe...
And one thing
Did you lie to me again?
You're outside
How to be dizzy when you are outside with your friends?
Don't suppose you come out with your friends to cure your dizziness
Hmm???
Am I a douche in your eyes?
What are the damn hell things I told you that night?
It was because that we keep things behind ourselves
And never tried to tell each other our thoughts
That's why we end up this way
And now you are still trying to keep something from me

I know I have no place to ask you to spit out everything you kept from me
But I don't feel good with all those secrecy in you
Is it that I'm still not good enough for you to talk to
Or I don't have that privilege to know what you are thinking?

Dude
Make up some sense in you will you?
I know your issues
But it's not the time to be childish right now
I need to know what you're thinking
And you need to know mine......

Perhaps I'm talking to nothing this minute...
But I still hope you understand...


Some thoughts popped up in me recently
Keeping my mind working like bees...
Busy busy busy~~
Interior Design / Psychology / Business Management?
Keeping out of Psy right now
And Business is not my cup of tea
Thinking that Interior might be what I need
And it will be good head start for what I'm gonna do
A good pay will come in too if I did it well enough

And I will be designing people's dream houses
Dream offices, dream shops
And finally my own home, my own shop....
Need a minor..
But can I cope it?
The major is quite heavy now...
A minor will bring more burden...
There's a need to reconsider...


Hmmm....
Lots of planning to do
To be what I wanna be
To roam free in the outside world by my own
A sturdy dream to fulfill
By the tones of my parents
It seemed to me that they agree to let me go far
A new environment will be just what I need
And know what?
I can be a bookworm for my whole life if it really happens
WooHoo~~!


Quote of the day :
Life is like a dream
Hold it firmly in your palms
And you will get what you want eventually and surely.