First Time

First time
I opened my PPS and didn't know what show to watch

First time
I opened my Kuwo and didn't know what song to listen to

First time
I opened my Facebook and swear the "f" word with shortcut English

First time
That I ever felt so cheated in my life

First time
I'm too shocked and gagged by my mouth

First time
Felt a heart throbbing pain I never encounter before

First time
Losing trust to someone who I depended on for a long time

First time
Giving up someone to another

First time
Meeting someone who changed my whole perspective towards life

First time
Ignoring someone so cruelly

First time
Losing confidence in everyone


Hell loads of "First times"
How many first times did I gave out since that day I decided
"You are THE ONE I will marry when I grow up" ?
(And hell you know this fact all along)
Why?
I'm asking WHY?
WHY did you hurt me again and again and again...??

I know
You forgot what you've promised me
You destroyed this whole thing with your own hands
The fact is not important anymore
Everything I listened is not important anymore
Repentance is what you should have right now

My heart is dead
And so should yours

You brought this upon yourself
And you made me feel like a sinner in front of her
Dammit!!



Today's quote:
We should move forward when we fell down
Not standing on the same spot where we fell