Poker Face

凌晨12点多，海边的路灯

第一次跟朋友出门出到酱晚

朋友，下次要出门出到迟迟的话

请约在礼拜天  XDD

很懒惰用英语写

现在处于不想用脑的状态

要在Moon里面睡觉的话

有穿冷衣就万无一失了

想要喉咙沙哑的话

点一首可以标高音的歌来唱就好了

想要回忆自己心里的伤痛的话

就点一首歌词很贴切的歌来唱

一定要在暗暗的地方唱

别人才看不到你的眼泪

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早上，第一次急急忙忙出门

学车的Uncle很奇怪勒

讲十二点学

十一点半就来载了

害我用时速（呃.....不知道多少 >.<）冲去换衣刷牙

OMG..........

而且!

第一次！

没有死到半次火~~~!

Yes~~~!!!! XPPPP

（我今天也太多第一次了吧  =.=）

学好要回去的时候

一辆很熟悉的车，挂着很熟悉的车牌

从我眼前飞过（你没有看错，是飞过 @@）

傻眼，心震了一下，也差点死火

完全没想过会在学车的时候看到他

话说，他教了我很多有用的东西

我也有学以致用

所以才不会一直死火

感谢，感谢，在感谢

有机会的话

会陪你喝酒的

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看着fb，心又碎掉一大半

哈哈哈~~或许，我就是那个坏女人吧

找到好女人了~恭喜哦 ^^

我看我根本不需要别人来安慰

自己安慰自己

可能还有效一点

哭出来的时候也畅快一点

我要坚强，不要懦弱

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朋友，谢谢你肯借我你的肩膀让我靠

我会善用你的肩膀的~~啦啦啦啦

补偿的事情

就算了吧 XPPPP

有些事情，只要有心就好了~

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“^^”

这个符号

本来只打算用在跟你写信息的时候

现在，应该不需要了吧...

天空突然一片辽阔   原来你是真的已经离开我

在我不熟悉的世界   过新的生活。

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Perhaps it's time for me to stop dreaming
Time to know where I'm standing
And not waste the tears I shed last night

A heavy night last night
Found out some unbelievable truth
But only from my own side of view
Never intended to ask him anymore
'Cause it's not important
He wouldn't tell even if I asked
Some words are not intended for me
But I always thought it did
Maybe I'm the obstruction
But I misunderstood her as the obstruction
Hahahahahahaha~~~~What a Fool I've been the whole time!!

That night
Everything is just like always
Remembered every single touch
And I missed that feeling
Didn't even know since when I started missing it
Loved the gentle touch of your big palms
But gentler to another.....maybe.....

Can see that
He still can't forget about her
He cared about her too much
He missed her
He wanted to get back to her
And I'm just a replacement

Well, I can only say
She won, I lost
In a fight I will never win from the beginning

Described LOVE as a fight
Wow..I'm really been hurt thoroughly is it?

Quote of the day :
Love is a high class game that I will never afford to play.

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Fucking damn pissed off right now...
What the hell is going on???
Why are there so many damn fakers and bullshitters around me...
Are you telling me,
that the world cannot survive without fakers and bullshitters all over it?
Stop faking around and be a nice guy in front of me
I know what you are up to
And I will be damned honored to play with you in this drama
I don't care what you are planning behind this thing
I just wanna know why is that you wanna do that

And by the way
So what if I made it happened?
You were not there
And do I need your permission to do what I want?
I thought you agreed to it
And I'm furious that you REALLY agreed to it
Okay, I admit I did it intentionally
Because you disregard me
And give me up (literally) to others without even asking me
And made up your mind on your own
Am I such a cheap woman in your eyes?
If I see you right now
I swear I will knock out some senses out of you
With every method I can do

So pissed off right now till I can't breathe...
And one thing
Did you lie to me again?
You're outside
How to be dizzy when you are outside with your friends?
Don't suppose you come out with your friends to cure your dizziness
Hmm???
Am I a douche in your eyes?
What are the damn hell things I told you that night?
It was because that we keep things behind ourselves
And never tried to tell each other our thoughts
That's why we end up this way
And now you are still trying to keep something from me

I know I have no place to ask you to spit out everything you kept from me
But I don't feel good with all those secrecy in you
Is it that I'm still not good enough for you to talk to
Or I don't have that privilege to know what you are thinking?

Dude
Make up some sense in you will you?
I know your issues
But it's not the time to be childish right now
I need to know what you're thinking
And you need to know mine......

Perhaps I'm talking to nothing this minute...
But I still hope you understand...


Some thoughts popped up in me recently
Keeping my mind working like bees...
Busy busy busy~~
Interior Design / Psychology / Business Management?
Keeping out of Psy right now
And Business is not my cup of tea
Thinking that Interior might be what I need
And it will be good head start for what I'm gonna do
A good pay will come in too if I did it well enough

And I will be designing people's dream houses
Dream offices, dream shops
And finally my own home, my own shop....
Need a minor..
But can I cope it?
The major is quite heavy now...
A minor will bring more burden...
There's a need to reconsider...


Hmmm....
Lots of planning to do
To be what I wanna be
To roam free in the outside world by my own
A sturdy dream to fulfill
By the tones of my parents
It seemed to me that they agree to let me go far
A new environment will be just what I need
And know what?
I can be a bookworm for my whole life if it really happens
WooHoo~~!


Quote of the day :
Life is like a dream
Hold it firmly in your palms
And you will get what you want eventually and surely.

First Time

First time
I opened my PPS and didn't know what show to watch

First time
I opened my Kuwo and didn't know what song to listen to

First time
I opened my Facebook and swear the "f" word with shortcut English

First time
That I ever felt so cheated in my life

First time
I'm too shocked and gagged by my mouth

First time
Felt a heart throbbing pain I never encounter before

First time
Losing trust to someone who I depended on for a long time

First time
Giving up someone to another

First time
Meeting someone who changed my whole perspective towards life

First time
Ignoring someone so cruelly

First time
Losing confidence in everyone


Hell loads of "First times"
How many first times did I gave out since that day I decided
"You are THE ONE I will marry when I grow up" ?
(And hell you know this fact all along)
Why?
I'm asking WHY?
WHY did you hurt me again and again and again...??

I know
You forgot what you've promised me
You destroyed this whole thing with your own hands
The fact is not important anymore
Everything I listened is not important anymore
Repentance is what you should have right now

My heart is dead
And so should yours

You brought this upon yourself
And you made me feel like a sinner in front of her
Dammit!!



Today's quote:
We should move forward when we fell down
Not standing on the same spot where we fell